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CROCKPOT!!!

Yes, I'm excited. My hunnie got me a crock pot for Christmas. Can I say its huge and I love it!

He did such a great job getting me my gift this year.

Let the crockpotting commence! I'm so excited.

I forgot what brand it was or I'd post a picture.

Okay, let me go...lol

Savvy Shopping...$10 Lasagna

So...I essentially spent $10.34 on tonight's meal!!

Let me show you how.

At shoprite, Mueller's lasagna is on sale for .99 a  box. You can use up to 4 coupons. If you go to the Mueller's Pasta website(Muellers) and sign up for their coupon/promotions membership, they will send you within an hour a link to log in and print out $.55 off any of their products...and you know anything doubles under 1buck!!! so I got 4 boxes for free.

Then I got a package of ground turkey on manager's special at 2.94. The shredded cheese is on sale for 1.69 each and Ricotta was 1.99 and Francesco Rinaldi is a 1 buck a bottle this week!


WHOOHOO...


Times are tough and I'm learning. This shopping trip (I had a 60 dollar budget for Christmas Eve dinner and I only spent 50) I saved $18.24!!! So proud of myself. 

What dreams may come...

I've always been heavily into dreams. And only those who have closely known me know how I feel about them. Some say they are suppressed fantasies. Which, in some cases, could very well be that. Others say that they have significant meaning on many things in your life.

This is what I believe.

I've been having reoccurring dreams about cheating. I didn't know if that had anything to do with what was going on or if they were me wanting to act out because of what was going on. Or if they it was me being secretly attracted to people that I really didn't care for. It was ALWAYS either an ex-fling or someone in my life that I really couldn't stand.

I avoided even thinking about it. But today I finally looked into.



To dream that you commit adultery or have an affair signifies your sexual urges and desires that are longing to be expressed. Alternatively, it indicates self-betrayal of your subconscious. You may find yourself entangled in a situation that is not in your best interest, perhaps even illegal.

Hmmm....let that marinate for a bit. My 15 month old just woke up.

Lie vs. Truth...Love?

Leaving.

Walking away.

Its oh so simple to say, but so hard to do.

But today I made the realization that I can't take this anymore. I convinced myself that it was me. That I needed to stop all of this "madness/craziness" and just move on. But part of the story was omitted. And no matter how much you say its not, its a lie.

"Lying by omission

Also known as a continuing misrepresentation, a lie by omission occurs when an important fact is left out in order to foster a misconception. Lying by omission includes failures to correct pre-existing misconceptions. When the seller of a car declares it has been serviced regularly but does not tell that a fault was reported at the last service, the seller lies by omission."

I dreamt that I faught a friend. Slapped her square in the face because she was doing something to hurt me. I woke up mad at her. Was mad at her for a week. Deleted her from my facebook didn't talk to her. And all this time I dreamt what I dreamt because God was telling me to ask her. I think I was afraid to really know the truth. But I asked her. Because at that point I was convinced I was mad and it was just something people were telling me.

But she confirmed what everyone else was telling me. And I let another person convince me that EVERYONE was lying and I needed to believe what this single person was telling me. SO, a tiny voice in my head said, "Ask her. She was there. She would know the TRUTH.

And my whole world came to pieces. All over again. She confirmed what i had feared all of this time.

Well, no matter how hard this is going to be and no matter how much its going to hurt. I have to walk away. Where do I go?

Who do I turn to? Who do I trust? Because the very people I that were telling me the truth--they were saying listen, open your eyes. And I couldn't. I wouldn't allow myself. I got so stuck on what I thought was love.

But if a person really, truly, sincerly loved me they wouldn't do what this person did to my heart.

And he thinks that omitting part of the story is fine. But its a lie.

I remember studying this in some class. I had to dig deep in my brain and wipe away the cobwebs.

I'm so much better than this. I'm loving below my means. I deserve so much better.

So...this consider this my Dear John Letter.

And thus...

...it begins.

I don't really know what I will be blogging about but I hope it piques someone's interest.

We shall see.